I am so happy that my family is finally all healing and seeing reality. I am sure nothing bad happens for us as we move forward to a birth family reunion. I am so ready for this to happen. It is all I am wanting these days. It seems that the truth is finally becoming clear for all of my sons, the truth that I was not raised by my birth family. I have known this for years and stated it many times but I am now seeing a change finally in acceptance of this truth.
During these times I have lived from one place to another this past few years, going with the flow. One place to the next was opened up for me. I adjusted and lived there knowing it was only temporary. I am feeling that way once again. I am living in a home that is totally unreal. I know I am making huge changes here but these people are barely in early healing. I manage to do what I have to do in order to stay here temporarily. It is working but it is so unreal! I realize that this stay is short-term but again I am unsure where my next home will be. It is that unclear.
When I live in an unreal situation, I intuitively know what things I must do to adjust and fit in. There are usually unmet needs and huge amounts of spirit worlds in control. Every place has had a different set of spirit worlds of course so the challenges are always different. Once I adjust to meet the challenges I go with the flow as necessary.
After awhile I get tired of the fitting in time and move through the spirit worlds as they purge. I am not allowing or enabling negative people or activities to control me. I simply say something about it and move farther away. I stop interacting with the negative people. Their smoking and drinking habits are not a part of me. I let it go and know that someday I will also be leaving here. Thank goodness!
I do not plant a garden here, although I could if I wanted to. I am simply here for now. I am living here for the rest of this year and make the best of it. It’s the only thing I can do right now. It works but again it is not ideal at all. It’s part of my healing as I purge out negative people and places that are in the way of me and my family.
I am powerful so living in an unreal environment is not unsafe for me now. I know what I have to do. I have my limits set accordingly. I never make a mistake. I say and do the right things at the right time. I help if needed but not to the extreme. I know my boundaries and stay within them. That’s the way I live here. I want to plant a garden again, grow roses and vegetables, but this is not the right place at all. I let it go when that suggestion is made. It is not happening here. This is not my family home.
This neighborhood has been my home for almost 4 years now. I am not sure where I will be going next. I am not sure at all but I know that it will get better now. I am sure of that and know that one day I will be in my family home again where I can plant a beautiful garden. There won’t be any negative people around me with their nasty habits. Our Universe is taking care of that for me. I’m safe.