I took a break from posting because I was just starting to repeat myself and that is not a good thing. I am doing just fine. There is nothing wrong. But, I am not really going to make a big deal out of my natural healing abilities. It is just me being me. I purge and I wish I had been doing this my entire life, but maybe I was in some way. Now my purging is so apparent, so noisy, so real! I was thinking back to when I was a teenager back in the 1970s, the good old days. I loved the sun and being at the beach. I loved listening to The Eagles, Linda Ronstadt, and even David Bowie! The sun and I are connected. I purge so fast in the sunshine. It is amazing! I guess that is why I am very connected to nature and the natural part of life. I was always like that. I consider myself a child of the universe. I really do not know who my real parents are. It is still a mystery.
I feel that all of the relationships that have occurred in my life were very setup spiritually. I did not know this at the time. But, the coming and going thing of the long term relationship fits the spiritual set-up perfectly. A layering of spiritual energies that peels away and that causes this coming and going affect. I am not involved right now with any man. I have stayed away from men for several years on purpose so that I can purge out the remainder of this spiritual energy regarding intimate relationships. That time out has made a huge difference in my life.
And I am thinking that in the near future, this time out I took will allow better intimate relationships between men and women everywhere.
This spiritual soulmate stuff is ending. It is not something that was real. And still is not real. I do not understand how people can go on with this spiritual kind of life. But they do. I do not. My life is real in so many ways now. I am not eager to be involved right now in any intimate relationships with men. I know I will in the future again but right now, it is very dangerous. Many men are going through a healing/ purging process and this causes them to have rages of varying intensities and this is very unsafe for me. I cannot tolerate any violent behavior. It is frightening.
I am such a powerful Healer that this raging behavior can happen right before my eyes very quickly. I stay away from men for my own safety and well being. I know that someday, the right man will be with me, but I have to be extremely careful and cautious. I know what has been going on with the relationship situation. I am not going to ever participate with that game anymore. I hope that if you read this, you can understand how dangerous it is becoming out there. I hope you will be careful with your relationships. It is not that important anymore to be in an intimate relationship.
This world grew up very fast and very spiritual. And it is now going away… On the Universe.