I took a break from posting because I was just starting to repeat myself and that is not a good thing. I am doing just fine. There is nothing wrong. But, I am not really going to make a big deal out of my natural healing abilities. It is just me being me. I purge and I wish I had been doing this my entire life, but maybe I was in some way. Now my purging is so apparent, so noisy, so real! I was thinking back to when I was a teenager back in the 1970s, the good old days. I loved the sun and being at the beach. I loved listening to The Eagles, Linda Ronstadt, and even David Bowie! The sun and I are connected. I purge so fast in the sunshine. It is amazing! I guess that is why I am very connected to nature and the natural part of life. I was always like that. I consider myself a child of the universe. I really do not know who my real parents are. It is still a mystery.
I feel that all of the relationships that have occurred in my life were very setup spiritually. I did not know this at the time. But, the coming and going thing of the long term relationship fits the spiritual set-up perfectly. A layering of spiritual energies that peels away and that causes this coming and going affect. I am not involved right now with any man. I have stayed away from men for several years on purpose so that I can purge out the remainder of this spiritual energy regarding intimate relationships. That time out has made a huge difference in my life.
And I am thinking that in the near future, this time out I took will allow better intimate relationships between men and women everywhere.
This spiritual soulmate stuff is ending. It is not something that was real. And still is not real. I do not understand how people can go on with this spiritual kind of life. But they do. I do not. My life is real in so many ways now. I am not eager to be involved right now in any intimate relationships with men. I know I will in the future again but right now, it is very dangerous. Many men are going through a healing/ purging process and this causes them to have rages of varying intensities and this is very unsafe for me. I cannot tolerate any violent behavior. It is frightening.
I am such a powerful Healer that this raging behavior can happen right before my eyes very quickly. I stay away from men for my own safety and well being. I know that someday, the right man will be with me, but I have to be extremely careful and cautious. I know what has been going on with the relationship situation. I am not going to ever participate with that game anymore. I hope that if you read this, you can understand how dangerous it is becoming out there. I hope you will be careful.