I wanted to say today that this February 1st is opening up just fine. I always think of February 1st as my day of freedom. I left a toxic work environment on February 1, 2008. That was a total of 18 years ago! That place, Novato Unified School District, caused me to have PTSD. I have definitely experienced PTSD personally and so I know how it feels. PTSD disrupts a livelihood and sends financial freedom in disarray. That is what happened to me. I was horribly harassed and experienced workplace bullying by female management personnel in a school district in Northern California.

I finally understand now that I endured a very bad situation. I was there doing an excellent job as a school nurse and a Parent Child Clinical Nurse Specialist. It was fine for me. I wanted to work on the same schedule as my sons. That is the only reason I became a credentialed school nurse. However, there were people in my way trying to hassle me all of the time. They tried to control me. I look back on those freaks and I know that they are all falling down now.

I completely healed myself away from those inappropriate, unprofessional bullies from my past.

Now, my February is just a normal, real month. I have full control of my February and have for many years. Although I may encounter other bullies along the way, they have no control over me. In fact, the opposite is true. I have control over all of the negative, controlling people who I have encountered throughout my life. I am purging all of them off of this planet. I suppose that being purged is not that pleasant but that is what happens to those evil control freaks. Those people are not able to heal. They are far too negative. They are purged. They are not good people. In other words, they cannot heal from being a bad person to a good person. That cannot ever happen.

I am having to say this one more time because I can heal away PTSD. I really do this completely and permanently.

My day is so fun. I ordered some food and had it delivered. I found some beautiful yarn and ordered that too. I just continue to move forward everyday. I am healing and purging the spiritual worlds off of our planet Earth. This is a natural ability which was highly suppressed for most of my early life. There is no suppression now. I know what I can do. I know I am doing great good for humanity. I will always be here to do this for our planet and our Universe.

I am the Healer of our Universe. I want to be called Healer. That is all I want now. I can do many great things and it is only the beginning. The fun is starting and never stopping. The Baddies are finally getting what they deserve. Purged.

Awesome, cool, and totally real.

I am making another Healer Wrap with this yarn in the colorway Panorama

Panorama colorway

My Panorama Healer Wrap is all about seeing the big picture in everything everyday.

This is the pattern I’ll be using:

This pattern is called the Willow Crochet Shawl from yarnspirations.com